Yee gods and little fishes!

I am working away and organizing and moving stuff around in the house and wow, what a mess. There is so much to do and very little room to do it in. Which is one of those bothersome things about this job - not a lot of wiggle room. :(

Here I go back again.

Observez ce moment très soigneusement.

Boules volant par l'air.

Rotation d'arrêt de boules.

Chute de boules à la terre.

Accident.

Reminder to self: get a copy of current credit report.

It is worth trying - even if I don't get accpeted... right?
Really?

I'm nervous because I really want this chance - it would be a once in a lifetime thing. But I am a little shy on the recommendations and admission guidlines. Mostly I am going to assume that they are not going to choose me but I should at least try. If I made it... wow. wow. wow. Nothing else would be like it in the world.

Fuck, I am scared.

http://www.ruralroutevideos.com/sheep/sheep-operation.aspx

http://www.electricscotland.com/history/canada/sheep_farming.htm

http://www.go.ednet.ns.ca/kingston/rebecca.marshall/

NF
Fast Facts:
Area: 156,650 sq. miles
Population: 568,500
Capital: St. John's
Economy: Industry: mining, food processing, pulp and paper.
Agriculture: seafood, poultry and eggs, dairy products, hogs.
Per Capita Personal Income (1996): $13,840
Entered Federation: 1949

NS http://www.gov.ns.ca/finance/statistics/agency/index.asp?p=5
Per Capita Personal Income (1996): $27,000

http://www.statcan.ca/english/freepub/82-221-XIE/01103/tables/html/228_01.htm
http://www.census.gov/statab/ranks/rank29.html

Damn I am restless on this.

I keep thinking of places and things I want to do/see but am so very tied down right now. Feel like I can't even plan or hope because I will never be unshackled from these ties. How do you overcome that? How do you settle down enough to wait for the time to change when really, all you want to do it run away into your dreams?

Do you break away?
Can you really just break away?

Gonna start to get busy soon. I have to keep up this time around but I also know that I can do more than I have. I have people believing in me... more than ever before. And it is real. That scares me. I have to also keep writing.

I picked up the 'market' guide for 2006. Book would be best but I don't know the plausibility of selling that right now... because of the pain involved in finishing in. Magazine next - sell the story, the bits and pieces, my side...etc. I know I can. I just have to do it.

1) look over book and highlight during free time this week.

First of all... it really is all about money. I am good at making my way in the world - just not always with money in my pocket to do anything about. I have compulsive spending habits that I usually regret after the fact. I try and keep myself busy enough to not indulge but it is hard. Yes, I can save money but I also shop when I get depressed - and that tends to happen when trying to follow ones dreams.... thing take time. I am bad about time.

Goal: $4500 (in the next year)
Doable? Yes.